There are so many changes being made in my life.  Changes that I am directing, molding, and straight out working hard for.  I am in a very good space right now.  I have really opened my eyes and started seeing things in a whole new light. The more I am seeing the more I am believing that this journey is so much more than I even thought it could be.  I am learning a whole different perspective of how things can be done for my competition prep with my coach who has a very different approach than what I have seen.  Also some serious changes in mindset and thought processes.  This is wear the real magic is at.

How you think plays such a huge game on anything and everything you do. More than you realize.  All those little thoughts throughout the day add up.  Here’s an example of some things I use to say that are very negative but you don’t think so in the moment; I forgot to take the trash out….I’m so stupid.  I’m so clumsy, I’m such an idiot I left my wallet at home. These are things we don’t really take as negative statements, but they are.  Would you tell your best friend they are an idiot because they forgot something at home, most likely not.  It’s not necessary, mean, and just not true.  So why say it to yourself?  hmmmmm.

As I’ve been on this path for fitness for a while and more specifically my goal for competing in the past 3 years I have been all over the map in my thinking.  While I have always basically been very positive especially for others.  I have been very tough on myself.  I have been my own worst critic and still working at being less harsh with myself.  I am an achiever.  I like to push toward goals and make things happen.  You have to have discipline, drive, and determination.  Theses do not require you to be harsh on yourself.  Many lessons have been learned around this.  In the past I was very concerned about what others thought and how I was perceived.  It’s taken so long for me to get to a spot where that is not the case anymore.  I have always been a little “outside the box”.  Not average in anything I do.  That is not because I have some huge ego or a know it all.  It’s because I do things with passion.

As I am here in Oregon with my main focus on preparing for my competition that is now less than 4 weeks out I am seeing changes.  Changes in my body, my mind, and my spirit.  As I post pictures in these last weeks is when you will see the most changes physically.  The truly amazing part of this transformation is something you may or may not be able to see.  The shifting of my thoughts which is creating many pathways of opportunity.  It’s an awareness.  I’m noticing how my thoughts are creating different views of situations which allow me to have a different outcome.  I have been tossing out the “rules” or “habits” that have been given to me in the past.  What I mean by rules is more of what society believes or what other people believe is the right way to do something.  There is no right or wrong way to do anything.  Just like this journey I’m on.  I had some people tell me that there is no way you can take a month off from your clients and go somewhere to train for your competition. It’s not realistic.  Then continued to tell me how I’ll ruin my business and I’ll come back to nothing.  Was that a possibility?  Sure, I obviously had thought about these things.  That’s not how I envisioned it. I spoke to clients, talked to my core group of people.  I made my decision to take this opportunity to grow knowing that I will come back and make it all happen.

Today’s post has seemed to go all over the map. That’s just where my mind is…..all over the place…in a very good way.  Opening up my mind is allowing opportunities to show up for me that I may have never even noticed before.  I am grateful for all I am learning and all I am becoming.