It isn’t easy to stay in the present.  Planning, working toward a goal, fitting it all in somehow.  I woke up this morning and had thoughts of all the things I should be doing, but my body was tired.  I took a deep breath and told myself to take this moment and do what my body is telling me…rest.  I did.  I laid there for another hour drifting in and out of a semi sleep.  Then when I got up I felt amazing.

I have been working on staying in the moment and being present in what I am doing.  Where I am very successful at this is during my workouts.  I am able to focus on that workout and even down to each rep.  Why?  Because I know it counts.  Meaning I know that each rep if I squeeze and push it just a little bit more it will bring a different result than if I just completed that movement.  When my coach directs me to do more than I think I can do….I somehow push through it and make it happen.  So if I let my own thoughts rule me….I would have done less.

Where the work lies is in my everyday life.  Being present with my thoughts and feelings around life in general.  I have so many things I want to do and be.  My mind can create many situations that don’t even exist.  Then that leads to worrying about it.  Then I am worried about something that doesn’t even exist.  It may potentially exist but it’s not there now, so at this moment why am I worrying about something that is merely a possibility?  My mind wonders so much. Especially now when I have all this time on my own.  VERY different than my usual day. Now most of my conversations are with me, myself, and I.  Believe me I am always talking to myself, but now when I have a lot less contact with others, it’s amazing to see how much self talk I can come up with.  Whew….do I talk that much to others?  haha

Trying to take out the “how its suppose to be” has been difficult.  I have been working to change up all the rules.  Why? The reason is that these rules were made up by others.  All previous habits of what we grew up with, or what society says, or how things have been done in the past.  All of that does not apply now.  It does not matter what others think.  This is my life and I am in charge of it.  We all want different things out of life so how can we all live by the same rules. What has worked before may not work now.  Create a new way.  Your way.

I am stepping forward in life.  I am on a path.  Creating things in my life that I haven’t had before.  Reaching out to others for support, developing a true inner strength, and really starting to live my life for me.  It’s hard to believe that it’s taken me so many years to get to a place to do this, but glad I am here now.  Being present to my needs and wants out of life.

Today I am grateful for all that I have at this moment.  Support of friends and family.  A coach who is behind me 100% in all that I am doing and cares about me as a person. Opportunities that are opening up to me.  My ability to do what I need to do each and everyday to create a Pro Physique. Grateful I can create what I want out of life.

All over the map today with my writing.  I am in a good place doing everything I need to do physically and mentally.  It feels so good to know that I am closer and closer each day to my goals.