I am a not a one in a million kind of girl,

I am a once in a lifetime kind of woman.

I believe this statement above.  It is not because I think I am better than anyone else.  It is because I believe in who I am in this world.  We are all unique and each one of us is a one of a kind.  The quote above is not really about how I look on the outside.  It’s about how I feel on the inside.  While my sport is very visual and we are judged on how we look, the creating of this body has deep routed internal components.  Many people believe this is a vein sport and every competitor is looking to have the perfect body.  I can tell you straight out…no one has the perfect body or every will have the perfect body. What is perfect anyway?  It is all conditional on who is judging what’s perfect.

While I do enjoy looking good.  It is not why I do this sport.  I am a competitive person.  I have played competitive sports all my life.  Softball being the number 1 sport.  Until a few years ago I played year round ball since I was 4 years old.  Competitive cheer and dance, track & field, cross country, tennis, and even archery.  I got into bodybuilding because I needed a personal goal.  A goal that forced me to work on myself.  Not rely on anyone else to accomplish it.  While I have coaches to guide me no one lifts the weights, eats the food, or does the cardio for me.  I either put in the work to get the results or the results do not happen.  It made me take the focus off of doing everything for others and start doing things for myself.  That does not mean I still do not love to care for and give to others.  I now have just been able to give to myself.

Confidence – a feeling of self-assurance arising from one’s appreciation of one’s own abilities or qualities.

Confidence is very different than being cocky or arrogant.  Feeling strong in who you are and what you believe in is confidence, but can sometimes be mistaken for arrogance at a glance.  That is why I really work on not judging others.  A glance of a situation may be perceived one way, but the story behind it may be very different.

One of the things I try to bring out in my clients is confidence. I work with a variety of people that are all different ages, in various situations, and all over the map in fitness levels.  I really try to build confidence around what we are doing while we are training.  No matter what level anyone is at there is a comfort level I want them to feel when they walk in the gym.  I’m not trying to get them to think they are a bad ass at the gym.  Just confident in walking in and knowing that they are taking care of themselves by doing what they need to accomplish to reach their specific goal.  It’s a constant area to work on as we continually change things up and work toward new goals and learn new types of movements and change up nutrition programs.

I work on confidence continually.  New things pop up, the past tries to grab you, the rug gets pulled out from under you, or amazing opportunities fall in your lap.  All of these things can rock your boat.  They rock mine all the time, but I am confident that whatever may come into play that I will make it through it.  Just like I’ve made it through some situations that I thought were impossible.  Here I am. I’m not just surviving.  I’m thriving.  I am moving forward and continually growing and expanding internally as well as externally.